So much has happened today, and its not really bad, just a lot, and I think getting in the habit of writing to process not just when I’m being big sad could keep this from becoming a dangerous hobby again.
I’ll go in order of my day.
I woke up and grabbed my phone to tell Naomi happy birthday, because I was bound and determined to be first. I open the group chat, and BOOM engagement photos. And on a hike that I’ve done before too. I love this for them, I knew it was only a matter of time, and I had a feeling it would be before Advance. Was it fast? Absolutely. They have known each other for 10 months. About 8 of those months have been spent always around each other, so that is still a lot of time to know someone. Probably more than some relationships if you want to do the math. I am actually so happy for them, I screamed upon seeing the pictures, and I am just hoping for an invite.
Ashlin texted me! Not me directly; it was the Pattaya girls group chat, so Maddie was also there, but she is alive and that is good news.
Savannah is getting married and moving across the country for a military guy. Savannah. The girl who got suspended more than she was ever in school, ran away from the principal, and cussed out teachers on the daily. She’ll make a great military wife.
Christina is pregnant. If anyone actually knew this page existed, I would censor names. As it is, all not important posts get removed after a month, because I think that is the only way to avoid what happened last time people found the page. Anyway. Yeah. I sort of had my suspicions since they were engaged and married in the span of two weeks (I think?) I’m scared for her. Not the baby, I think she will be a wonderful mother, but her mental health isn’t at a superb place, and a child is a massive added stress, plus postpartum depression and all of that other not fun stuff. I need to be praying for her. I’m sad I didn’t find out from her. That she didn’t trust me enough to tell me. I found out from Ashlin who found out from Amanda who found out from Ella who found out from Christina. Yikes. That definitely crosses the line into capital G Gossip. I’ll let her keep her secret until she is ready to tell me. Her situation is so different from my coworker, Aly. She is also my age and pregnant out of wedlock. She broke up with the baby daddy because she didn’t like him anymore, has told me that the only reason she’s breastfeeding is so he can’t get custody, and that if it’s a boy, she’ll beat him. Safe to say, I’d much rather Christina have a child than Aly. I’m scared for Christina, but I’m scared for Aly’s child.
A relationship that I accidentally helped start a year ago is falling to pieces, and I think it needs to. Leighton and Reese were coworkers of mine, and they met at that job. I got Reese the job, and set her and Leighton up. Reese has parents who forbid her from stepping foot in a church, but she asks many questions about God, and I gave her a study Bible a few months ago. I believe she has a relationship with God, it just doesn’t look normal. Leighton is an MK from Africa. He is an interesting sort of person, very friendly to his people. I hosted a worship night tonight. I was excited to have friends to have something like that with. So I invited my camp group chat, and Reese.
Leighton told Reese that she couldn’t go.
Am I wrong to be upset by that? Is Reese wrong to be upset by that? Ever since camp, any time he is given the choice, Leighton chooses his camp friends over his girlfriend, even when the choice isn’t his to make.
I invited Reese. KIAH invited Reese. Leighton did not invite Reese. I invited Reese to my event. If it had been someone else’s event, of course I wouldn’t have invited anyone else. But Leighton told her that it was just for camp people and that she was not welcome.
This was the first ever church thing that she was ever going to be able to attend, was excited to attend, and Leighton scared her off because he wanted to hang out with his friends.
His friends that didn’t even show up.
I’m debating saying something to him. I honestly think it was disrespectful of him to tell someone that I invited that she wasn’t welcome. I didn’t invite her as Leighton’s girlfriend, I invited her as my friend.
ugh.
Why is community so hard sometimes.
Karis ships me with Jade, and I don’t like that. If he knew, I wonder how he’d feel.
A lot of my camp people ship me with Trevor. Not sure how I feel about that, and I’m sure I could guess his reaction.
Javan ships me with Will, and Will has a girlfriend. Which Javan knows.
I don’t think other people’s opinions on my lack of a dating pool matter.
That was my day. It was just very weird.
I am no longer home alone, my family is back.
And my mother knows I almost crashed her car.
I didn’t let her freak out, because she would have never known if I hadn’t told her.
Yup.
Rainy Ramblings 