Real. – Rainy Ramblings

Being Back

I am currently in the process of writing an Outreach overview post, but it turns out that I haven’t really been in the mood to process. Processing Outreach means that it’s over. I’m not ready to accept that yet. So this is “I just landed in the United States 12 hours ago, and jet lagContinue reading “Being Back”

🦋

“Do you think that you have to have “butterflies” over a person to have romantic interest in them?” Asked by me, to Google and to Trevor. Answered by…me. Maybe. I used to think yes. I maybe still do, but I don’t think that I am correct in thinking so. All of the people that I’veContinue reading “🦋”

Christmas

Merry Christmas. To myself. I live 13-15 hours ahead of anyone else I care about. Besides my outreach team of course. I was doing fantastic about “all of this” (asked by Mother, if I was ok being gone during Christmas. Answer: Fine, super busy teaching English) I am still failing to feel sad in theContinue reading “Christmas”

Spirals.

If I’m writing a blog post while on outreach, I must either have an abundance of free time, or something big enough to get through the still sort of there emotional block. I haven’t had downtime in a week. Take that as you will. Our hosts have the stomach flu. I appreciate Drew andContinue reading “Spirals.”

Snippets: Extended

These are snippets from my outreach journal thus far that I didn’t expand upon in the actual journal because I write in my journal right before bed, and I am dead tired every night, so minimal details for the win. I know I haven’t been faithful in writing on this page, and I am sorryContinue reading “Snippets: Extended”

First Thailand thoughts ?!

Outreach So I’m here. In Thailand. It doesn’t feel real. Half the team is gone, and we’re overseas, and in a culture we don’t know. *** oops. I fell asleep. Ya girl was TIRED. I’m on a bus headed to our first real location. I’ve been in Thailand for about two days. Its something. I’mContinue reading “First Thailand thoughts ?!”

One of those YouTuber Apology Videos

But I’m not a YouTuber, and this is a blog. Hey new readers. I am almost positive that this overly poetic style of my dealing with my emotions was not what you were expecting when you agreed to read this. I am sorry about that, I honestly forgot what this blog was originally usedContinue reading “One of those YouTuber Apology Videos”

Avoidance

I have yet another list of things to write about and process, so lets dive right in. We moved to Pattaya. I miss the family. It’s too loud and busy here. The mosquitoes are worse. The ocean is cool. Too much sand. This place is trashy. Literally there is trash everywhere. The poorly hidden sexContinue reading “Avoidance”

I cried twice today

On two separate occasions for two entirely separate reasons. I haven’t really cried in weeks. Months maybe. I’ll start with the smaller reason first. We were told that there was no more soccer practice. I hadn’t realized that. I had told my girls that I would see them a few more times before I go.Continue reading “I cried twice today”

Another set of snippets

It’s looking about time for me to make another one of these posts, as my mind keeps going at top speed, and I haven’t overshared on here yet. No time like the present. “We’re both getting to vulnerability” (December 16). I think this is true in more ways than one. As Cody and I continueContinue reading “Another set of snippets”